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Wednesday, November 14, 2007
Maybe its time I stop probing for answers... The only answer to all my questions is: I love him for he is the one I love... Past, present and future... No matter what has happened, my love for him is just as strong...
Yes, I have been making things difficult for him, trying to force him to accept my love. Looking for him in the middle of the night, crying... Tiring him out... I am apologetic about those things I have done. Its due to fear. The fear of him forgetting me, losing him henceforth. I need courage...
Yes, I am making things difficult for myself. Its time I be a little less self-centered and put down my pride, and look at things from his point of view. Definitely, it may be better if I were to move on... By choosing this path, I am prolonging my pain. There are a thousand reasons why I should give up, but I'm stubborn in the things I believe in... Even with just one reason for me to hang on, I can overlook the other reasons why I should give up.
Maybe its true that no one is indispensible... Its the choice between you want to do it or not. This is my choice, I have chosen him...
In the name of love, I will bear the pain and hold on. Maybe one day he will realise how much I love him. Maybe one day we could be together again. Even if not, that will not compromise my love for him.
I will not ask for answers anymore. I will not try to force him anymore. I do not want to force him to the edge of the cliff anymore.
Somethings may be said or done at the heat of the moment. I just hope we could take a step back and calm ourselves down, cherish eachother...
Alvin, I love you.
With Love, Jas 11:38 AM
Jasmin Kee
CHIJ-OLGC, Cedar Girls' Sec Sch, CJC, SIM
jas2104@hotmail.com
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