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Welcome To My Secret Garden
Friday, October 26, 2007
Woke up at 6 am, and I couldn't fall back into sleep. I guess I slept too early. I forced myself to sleep too early..
Maybe I have loads of things on my mind as well. Once I close my eyes, everything runs into my mind.
It sucks, I swear... It sux to wake up feeling empty, hungry and cold. Just too hungry if not i probably go find some alcohol to make myself fall dead into my bed once again.
I am very disappointed with alot of things happening lately. I hate that fact that I have put in effort into doing something and everything still seems to go in vain. As much as I wanna defeat the ideology that "things will never be the same again", it seems to be more promising that things in fact are never gona be the same again. I do not wish to specify more on this.
I am not having my PMS but I am irritated with things. Irritated with the fact that mummy has made dinner. Yes, she has made dinner but only one dish edible! Is it cos the fact that she zhong nan qing nu cos my bro is not coming home for dinner and she have to ruch off for you-know-what appointment. I would rather she have not cooked any and I don't have to oblige to eat whatever that she has anyhow-cooked and go to the coffeeshop and da bao. I would rather go on a hunger strike more than anything else.
I am irritated by the fast that everyone seems to be all busy and hoping somethings will happen and simply hoping something will happen.
(Is it cos that I am too free that I am dwelling too much on something and causing myself to be irritated with stuffs that I should not concern more?)
I am having groundless anger. Angry with things that I ought not to be angry about.
HaiZzz... All I can do is to sit and stone and hope things will subside and hopefully into the places I want it to be.
URGHH~!!!
I am fretting over so many things I need a break. How am I to let myself stop thinking about things and really go relax my mind? How should I do it? Will somebody teach me?
*Angry!!! ANGRY with myself*
I don't know why, but sometimes like now, I really hate myself.
With Love, Jas 7:02 AM
Jasmin Kee
CHIJ-OLGC, Cedar Girls' Sec Sch, CJC, SIM
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