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Welcome To My Secret Garden
Tuesday, June 26, 2007
I read a book earlier this year saying that I will rise up to adversities. Sounds comforting initially cos I will rise and become stronger, but think harder, it just meant that I'll have a difficult year ahead.
Its 7 am and I had not slept a single minute. I just couldn't sleep. I could not stop thinking. I have 101 things on my mind I duno what to do.
I have just realised that I have a great fear of loud sounds. Loud bangs especially. I think I developed this from the accident a month ago. I thought it was nothing more than paranoia initially, but I am sure now that such sounds can give me a hell of fright.
I remembered the very next day of the accident, I was taking a bus ride and was sitting rather near the door. The slamming of the door upon closing was enough to make me jump of fright. Slight veering off course of a vehicle makes me worry. Hard braking makes me hold on to my seat tight.
Is there anything I can do to overcome this?
Yesterday I heard that kinda loud bang again. Till now my heart has been racing. For a moment, I really hope my heart will slow down a little. It is beating so hard, I could hardly breathe.
I am so afraid now. I feel so helpless. I can't stop reproaching myself.
With Love, Jas 7:18 AM
Jasmin Kee
CHIJ-OLGC, Cedar Girls' Sec Sch, CJC, SIM
jas2104@hotmail.com
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