In the midst of nursing my wounds, Laine and Geok came over to my place for a cookie making session!! The thought of it all is exciting but when you actually gonna do it, its kinda dreadful. Think of the chore to bring out all the equipments, preparing the ingredients and the washing and clearing up part... OOOooo~!!! Headache!
As expected, the first batch of cookies were burnt!! Totally burnt!! Its as black as charcoal! LOL~! Less the flames!!! Wahahah!! I thought it was hilarious, cos of of them including my mum was at the living room, very near the oven, but no one realised until Geok detected smoke.. HAHAHA~!! Well, I wasn't around cos I was busy changing cos I needed to work. Haha!!
Hmmmm... I think the end product for today didnt turn out too bad! It didnt taste as nice prob cos we used dark chocolate instead of milk chocolate. I bet it would have tasted better if milk chocolate was used!! Haha!
I think we will have more baking sessions in the near future. I am more interested in making muffins and brownies!! I wish I could make delicious brownies, cos I just love brownies!! Yum Yum!!
You know what am I thinking of now??? I am thinking of PSP!! I went to A&E after the accident and I saw this guy with a pink PSP!! OMG! How I wished I had a PSP with me during the wait!! Argh!! I need a PSP!! Money drop from the sky, please!!!
Haha!!
Hmmm.. I have been taking paracetamol to make myself sleep better at night... I just feel kinda sad sometimes, I wish I could just sleep everything away...
With Love, Jas 11:53 PM
Somehow, I did not know how to start this post. I was a real lucky person in an unlucky situation.
I was involved in an car accident. Mich, I am really glad we have eachother!!
It was the last thing I ever thought would happen to me. I am thankful for many things. Thankful that I am still alive, thankful that Mich is ok, thankful that I have friends who cares! I LOVE YOU, MICH!! Thanks to all who showed me concern!
I am grateful we were in a Merc instead of other Jap cars. I am grateful that no one is badly hurt. I am grateful that the crash happened the way it happened and we did not get any pedestrians hurt or damage any public properties. Lucky Lucky Lucky!!
I realised how important my friends are to me. It will be a trauma if I were to lose anyone of them. I just Love them so much!!
I shall not talk about the detail of how the accident happened. I have been story-telling the whole day. Details of it all can be found on Mich's blog anyway.
The accident made me realised many things. First thing first, I need to buy an insurance. Second, I am sure a continental car is worth the investment. I have real-life experience. All motorists, please drive with care!!
It was a long night for me. I got a little emotional after everything when finally tried to sleep. I kept thinking about horrible things and that made me cried like crazy at approximately 6am. Oh no... I feel like crying now.
I duno what else to say about my near-death experience. I will treasure my life. Just take care everyone!!
I was just sitting at the front passenger seat. Just imagine how lucky I am to walk away with superficial injuries. Even airbags are activated!! Imagine how great the impact of the collision was...
With Love, Jas 2:10 AM
Met up with the girls for supper and once again we refused to go home. We broke the the previous record, this time round we stayed till about 4.30am. (the previous was 4.15am) We are officially the Kovan night dwellers. Haha!!
Somehow we have endless things to talk about... Gossips, relationship problems, different perspectives. And I am really surprised we can actually hang around for about 6 hours without running dry of topics.
We were talking about relationships and rationality. We formed 2 school of thought. Mine is the school that believes that one should do what they deem right. While the opposing school take serious consideration about rational thinking and behaviour.
One question: Should love be rational? Think about it, if you exhibit rationality in a relationship all the time will you just miss out some essence of life. Essence of life in the sense, meaning the rise and fall, learning from mistakes. One should learn the hard way sometimes. I think trying too hard to prevent any mistakes may just prevent you from experiencing the fullness of life.
The Rationale School of Thought may argue, being irrational may bring yourself more pain, more sorrows, less objective and maybe some regret. Maybe both schools can be right to an equal extent. Conclusion, sometimes you need to be a little more rational while other times, just follow your heart.
It takes both to work out a relationship and it takes one to destroy. It takes years to build up a relationship and moments to destroy one.
Love exist definitely, but love may not be everlasting. They were saying that one should put in effort to build up a relationship and maintain it and not just leaving it aside when you are sick and tired of facing it. Maybe just like a a baby, it takes love commitment and perserverance to groom and bring up a baby, don't say when you find out ur baby is ill or less intelligent then you just cast the baby aside. No right?
Talking about the existence of Love and it not being everlasting. So I wondered, can marriage be build and maintain on a condition of discounted love. Isn't a marriage with discouted love just like marriage built on the foundation of sand? My analogy is that discounted love will bring about discounted commitment and discounted efforts. If you step into a marriage where discounted love exist, is it going to be sustainable?? Well, whatever it is, just remember that you don't walk into anything thinking that its going to fail. You don't walk into a marriage thinking of divorce all the time. But the topic about discounted love is something worth reflecting about.
Isn't love and relationships complex?? And for us humans to think about all these complex issues, we are just complex creatures making the environment more complex for ourselves to live in. Maybe sometimes we should just stop our pace and think through what we really want in life and working towards it.
With Love, Jas 2:39 PM
This post is just about me complaining and rambling about some shildish stuffs.. LOL~!! Here it goes...
I am really bored and don't know what should I do with my life now... I have been stoning, slacking, bumming ard, watching tv and not doing anything constructive to my life. The most impactful factor is that I am really very very broke and basically planning activities requires some pennies!!
There goes my idea of having a movie marathon after my exams of watching Spiderman3, Priceless, 200 Pounds Beauty, 28 Weeks Later and The Wind That Shakes The Barley. The cheapest deal I can get watching all this is $6.50x6=$39 and I ain't have enough pennies for that!! How sad!! BooHooHoo~!
Why are some people so fortunate?? They get PSP without even asking for it. Life is unfair. Some people don't even need to work and they can get the things that they want, and here I am trying hard to slog and save up but still.... Nothing seems optimistic. Oh well, life is really unfair.
If I bum around more, I am sure the mood swing will come and hit me big time!! I am already feeling a little mood swing when I screamed at my mum for trying to wake me up when I was napping. I have a bad temper so don't try me out. I am dead serious.
I was thinking of borrowing the car for the weekend but I couldn't even afford any petrol and parking expenses!! DARN!! That's how poor I am now... So I am living in a vicious cycle where I just remain penniless and continue to bum and bum and bum... When will there be a budget surplus?
Staying at home is not a good idea... Worse when you are bumming around at home... This is simply the reason that when you bum around, you get hungry all the time... So when you are at home, you snack all the time... And after you finish snacking, you feel tired and take a nap... So its snacking and napping non-stop. It can be a real nightmare if your fridge is packed with nothing but chocolates!! I am so going to be a fat-ass~!!
My face hurts~! It just dosent seem to be healing this time... What should I do?? Feeling lousy and horrible... So, I am a fat-ass who has a lousy complexion... What's worst?
Even how fat and how ugly I may be of, I will still love myself for who I am... Life can be rather traumatising and probably that's when you realise how precious your true friends are... Besides loving yourself, love those who cares too... Show them that you care before its too late...
With Love, Jas 11:43 PM
When you are on your way home and you happen to see a stranger who caught your attention. You have the urge to get to know the person's name and hopefully be a friend. Will you approach that stranger? Will you just let fate slip away?
Looking at the perspective of the stranger if he/she was approached:
1.The person approached will probably question the situation. Whether or not is it a prank or some true or dare being played by a group of people and you are the pawn of the game.
Verdict: Very likely the approacher will be rejected.2.The approached will question again. "What intention does the the approacher bear to do this?"
Verdict: Most of the time the approacher will still be rejected.
3. The approached base his/her decision on the basis on how he/she was approached and the first impression the approacher had on the approached.
Verdict: Most of the time, approacher will still be rejected.
This leads to the question: Should you make the first move?
Seems like the answer is a straight No. For hardcore people who believe in You Never Try You'll Never know, go ahead and make a hit (for you may just strike a jackpot).
So, How How How??
Seriously, I have no idea how. I never tried doing this and I never accepted anyone who approached, but I have some advices.
Focus: Try to make the hit at natural as possible but yet creating an impact on the other party.
Don't rush into matters and try to get personal particulars (eg. phone numbers) on first attempt. First impression counts alot!! (To many, this is easier said than done. It takes some wittyness to get the going, going)
Don't try to let the approached to take pity on you and make a forced acceptance. In explanation, don't say something like, "I have been noticing you for a long time and followed you over the overhead bridge to catch you". You just make yourself sound like a pervertic stalker.
If you are rejected, don't keep quiet and walk away just like that. Say something like "Nice to meet you and have a nice day." Put a fullstop to every sentence as there might be chance to start another sentence. Everything is possible.
All the best!
With Love, Jas 10:26 PM
Finally 3 papers have ended... And I am left with one last paper on Monday.
2 more days and I can have no more of exam stress!!
UOL Exams has really give me so much stress, that I feel that I have not been more stressed up before in the earlier parts of my life....
I suffered from stress-induced diarrhoea once awhile and last night a stress-induced migraine. I never had migraine in my life till last night and Its really just so painful. I feels like the head is bleeding from smashing a beer bottle at it. It is a sharp pain that only occur in a small region of the head. Its so different from normal headache and for a moment, I thought someone used a Voodoo doll on me, stuffing a handfull of needles on my head.
I am greatful I woke up fresh and painless this morning, but feels like the migraine is coming back!! Please don't!! I still need to study!!
I am tired... And quite worn out... I need to catch a movie... I need to destress...
With Love, Jas 2:46 PM
Oh No!! There are so many things, SO little time!! How do I study POA and score a distinction?? I am almost drained of energy... SO tired... I gotta blame myself for slacking so much that I feel all stressed up now... HaiZz...
What are all those ratios, contribution margins, break even points, cash flow statements!!
And what the hell does Accrual means???
Those who scored distinctions, just tell me how the hell you did it!!
I need PSP!! I need Shopping!! I Can't wait to go Hong Kong!! I cant wait for the freaking exams to be over then I can watch all the movies I have missed so far! So deprived of movies I feel like crying... Help me!!
I am going bonkers!
Just someone, Drive me to heaven!!
With Love, Jas 2:07 AM
SFB8***Y is injured again... This time I am NOT the cause of it!! Not only is SFB8***Y badly scratched, it has a remarkable dent that cannot escape anyone's eye...
SFB8***Y's immune system seems to be detioriating... Last week it visited the doctor because of overheating as the fan snapped... Now it is badly injured by some irresponsible freak.
Mr Ong's father is the unlucky one to meet this kinda incidents when he happened to drive out SFB8***Y once a week...He was driving when the fan snapped last week, and SFB8***Y got injured after he parked the car yesterday... He is super sway... The unlucky stuff befall only him when he drives out SFB8***Y...
Take a look at poor SFB8***Y...
The scratch is on the same side as the scratch caused by me the other time... But the scratch cause by me is so insignificant compared to this new one... I can feel the pain SFB8***Y felt... Ouch!!
I need a PSP badly!! Any kind soul buy it for me please!!! LOLx.. I promise I'll be a good girl~!!
With Love, Jas 5:42 PM
It all started out with stepping out of the bed with the wrong foot... And then continue with what is already wrong in the beginning...
With Love, Jas 12:18 PM
Heal the world
Make it a better place
For you and for me and the entire human race
There are people dying
If you love enough for the living
Make a better place for you and for me
I heard this song on Class 95 just now and I was reminded how sensational Michael Jackson used to be. To be precise, he was the King of Pop. But just look at him now! What has happened to the one who moved many hearts with his songs? The extensive plastic surgery has made it so difficult to spot any resemblence to what he once used to be and definitely ruining his career in one way or another.
To the generation Y, many would probably know how to sing at least one of Michael Jackson's song. As for now, you can see Jackson's CD lying around the sales corner selling at $9.95. How sad can it be?
I was surfing on Funkygrad webbie and came across this article "Can A Girl Love Another Girl?"
Being from a girl's school I remember having to attend talks regarding relationships, infatuation and love. Despite the fact that the speaker tried very hard to convince us that if we are fond of any of our peers in school, it probably will just be just a crush, not love. I wonder. Its a phase that comes and goes rapidly especially for girls in girl's school. Is it true? I wonder.
I still remembered how much those speakers used to emphasize that we should only start finding boyfriends and engaging in relationships only when we are in Universities (for the reason that we should concentrate on our studies before that) I questioned. Ain't it too late?
Life is not a refrigerator where you can freeze ur feelings and store it away. Until when you think its the right time then you can choose to thaw whatever you stored, as and when you like. Assuming things will remain the same as before.
Life's not like that. Feelings fade, feelings change. In order to live life to the fullest, shouldn't we try to experience and behold all that we can and not wait till its too late for remorse?
I never heeded any of such what I though as ridiculous advices and and plunge into a relationship when I was 14. I kept it from my family. Seniors disapproved, teachers frowned. I just followed my heart and did what I think I will not regret. I don't want to live a life of regrets. That's a principle I strongly adhere to.
I have walked through that relationship for close to 7 years and still walking through it. Yes, its totally surprising for many to think that young girl can stay committed to one guy for so long. Well, I did it. It wasn't too difficult, I guess.
However, after being in a relationship for so long. I really yearn to get back the feel of singlehood. Somehow humans are weird. On a same patch of grassland, the grass still seem to be greener on the other side. I want to have the feeling that I do not have to report to anyone regarding where am I, what am I doing, who am I with etc. I want to enjoy freedom to the max somehow, somewhere.
I guess I value friendship more than anything else, cos I am sure friends last, love might not. However I think its stupid for those who want their loves to remain as friend in fear that they might lose them one day. Hey! You should not walk into a relationship thinking that its gonna end!! That's Foolish... But think again, love itself is a foolish game, and we willingly and constantly get fooled by it.
I admit, I am darn foolish.
With Love, Jas 8:50 PM
I was busy mugging and preparing for exams... So busy that I felt so lifeless....
Finally MKTG and Macro is over!! (apparently examiners for both papers are rather lazy! Questions came out similar to prelim and past year's questions)
2 more papers to go!!!! Jiayou!!
I need to watch movie badly! I have not watched a single movie since 21st April... And that was Wild Hogs.. I wanna watch Spiderman3 (eventhough many told me it was tad-too draggy). I wanna watch 28 Weeks later (eventhough its almost similar to 28 Days later). I wanna watch Priceless!! Pirates of the Carribean is coming up soon!!
*I swear, I am a movie Addict... I can't live without movies!!
Mid paper break now... LOL!! Met up with the girls to chill... And this time we decided to try out Indochine (Music Garden) instead of going for the usual hideout, Timbre. We did not enjoy ourselves very much at Indochine.
At Indochine...
Geok and SH
Laine and me...Somehow, the refusal to go home was very strong... After Indochine, we went to the Prata place at kovan... Chat around for awhile, till laine wanted to eat Mcdonald's Fries... We only managed to get our butts off and make our way home about 4+am.... By that time I was already yawning with teary eyes... TIRED!! Night Owl rawkZ!
With Love, Jas 8:19 PM
More Pics At Daybed...
Mich trying to look comfortable... Or rather, seductive on a failed attempt...
******************************************************************Mugger days...
These are the things that keep me company throughout the day in school...
You need ear plugs too... Cos there are inconsiderate Indo who just can't keep their volumes down even in a library...
Beautiful notebook... Too colourful to resist... Don't you just love that Cherry???
This calculator cost me $6.90. I duno how to use this kinda simple calculators... Stupid exam rules does not allow scientific calculators! Faints!
Notebook.... BEFORE...
Notebook... AFTER....
Above:
These are my must haves......
These are my must haves......
Fancy gems keep me happy... Beautiful notebook makes me wanna fill it up... Favourite Green apple candies... Super simplified calculator that I have yet master how to use... Notes(perfect lullabys)
You need ear plugs too... Cos there are inconsiderate Indo who just can't keep their volumes down even in a library...
Beautiful notebook... Too colourful to resist... Don't you just love that Cherry???
This calculator cost me $6.90. I duno how to use this kinda simple calculators... Stupid exam rules does not allow scientific calculators! Faints!
Notebook.... BEFORE...
Notebook... AFTER....I am Just tOOOooo Bored....
Lifeless me has been reduced to blogging and taking stupid pictures as a form of entertainment.
Good news: I don't need to pay my parking fine!! Save $50!! ( I was fined last week )
With Love, Jas 10:58 PM
Its was a happy day!! Other than all the mugging and Sian-ness of mugging, it was still a happy day!! Mugging did not manage to dampen my spirits for once.. Wahaha!!
For once, I feel more than happy that my period finally came. Wait! Before you even think about it... It has nothing to do with pregnancy or whatsoever! Haha! I just can't wait to take my hormone pills for my acne (in case you might not know, you have till the period comes before taking the pills) Isn't the thought that I am just one step closer to better skin delighting? I am delighted!
The fact that I have gained hope that my face will be better soon made my day! (Last few days was hell! My face was so bad, I didn't feel like going out, I had bad mood and I could not even concentrate on anyone and anything)
I realised something, when girls get together, they always tend to always talk about marriage, relationships etc. As we all know, females are emotional creatures. Yep!
SH asked, "Will you be worried if you are 24 and still single?"
Hmmmmm.... Maybe a year ago, I would say I will be very worried, but as for now, I don't think I'll be worried. Only people with low self-confidence will be worried. Somehow, I have gained a little confidence recently... And being single definitely has no cause for worry for me as of now.
I changed my mind regarding early marriage and early child-birth. I realised that I used to live in planet Euthopia after sorting out some thoughts. I think I am not ready for marriage at all. I have a sudden spur to experience a life of a workaholic. Sounds insane but I really wanna do something great before I get buried in the constraints tagged to marriage.
Do I wanna be a homemaker??? No, but maybe yes 10 years later.
Been having loads of conversations with the girls and I find my life is so screwed. I have no goal, no directions. I don't even know what and what I wanna work as after I graduate. I don't even know what I really want in life.
I find that I am too caught up with problems of my everyday life that I don't even realised that I have yet to think about such important issues.
Isn't life complicated? Why can't life be smooth-sailing? Why do feelings change? Why can't Romeo and Juliet live happily ever after? Why do people keep secrets? So many questions, hardly I can think of any logical answers. There is no such thing as a simple life, the more simple you want it to be, the more complicated it gets.
I am disappointed with myself.
What is disappointment? It is a feeling dejection that arises when anticipation is not realised. One should not feel disappointed if when expectation is not met. Neither should one lose faith and give up. Continue! Be persistent! Hold on to your hopes, dreams and desires. There will definitely be a lucky day.... someday....
I hope tomorrow will be a lucky day, and I will meet lucky people and get myself immersed in a lucky atmosphere!
With Love, Jas 2:10 AM
Hey girls, I found the ID and password for www.clique_identity.blogspot.com!! Can get the new ID and password from me and start posting away!!
I've have been mugging today... Though I slept like 2 hours, I knew I tried... Its not really very productive trying to get marketing concepts into my head, but at least I got the engine started a little (way too late though!)
Exams are just next week!!
I saw this poem posted my laine on our long-abandoned blog... And its just too sweet...
Sharing one umbrella
We have to hold each other
Round the waist to keep together.
You ask me why I'm smiling--
It's because I'm thinking I want it to rain for ever.
Vicki Feaver
With Love, Jas 10:18 PM
We Are Going To HONG KONG!!!!!
Laine, SH and me will be flying to Hong Kong on 21 July! And our holiday will last for 6D5N!!
We finally booked our tickets to Hong Kong! Yeah! The thought of it excites me thoroughly! Now we are left with the accomodation to fret over... Yeah!! Planning of the itinery... Oh yes!
I am on antibiotics for my outbreak again. I just hate this kinda antibiotics! Its simply torturing... Its giving me gastric problems and hopefully it will not make me lose appetite again... I shall bear with it just for the name of beauty! Argh! I am a beauty victim!
This few days ought to be ultra happy for me... I finally got my Speedy25!! We finally confirmed our trip to HK!! However, something still manage to dampen my spirits... Besides the fact that acne kills my day, I was presented a parking offence ticket aka SUMMON!! $50 is a huge amount to me now!! I was booked for parking in a season parking lot without season parking ticket.. =((
The parking bracket is a white one what!! =(( I feel conned man!! Apparently the board at the entrance of the parking area stated that coupon parking is only till 10.30pm!! OMG! I bet many of you motorists don't know about this lo! Its time all motorists have to start reading the board carefully before parking at the area... I bet many people will not notice such things on the board and take it for granted that a white bracket is availabled for all to park all day. Never will you think that a white lot will turn red after the minute hand turns half past 10... =((
Whatever it is, its a lesson learnt. I will try to appeal my case and hopefully I can get waived off. Wish me luck manZ!!
With Love, Jas 1:52 AM