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Tuesday, November 30, 2004
I finished Dan Brown's Angels and Demons in mere 3 days... This is quite an accomplishment for such a slow reader like me...
So many things to do.. but got no money to proceed... I really need a job to generate some income to support my ever-so-splurgeful lifestyle... Or anyone wanna support me... *beware! i will drain you dry*
Saw Michelle's blog just now, she mention she wants to get a Crumpler and a big bag ( preferably an Project shop ) Geok also looking for a big bag... And GOSH~! i realise i have all the wanted now... I got my 'big bag' ages ago.. In fact i have a few big bags for different occasion... Beach, School, Shopping etc... This is no bragging session or any sort of flaunting-of-possessions... But i realise how much i have spend... I can hardly control myself... Sigh.. No matter how many bags, how much clothes i have.. nothing seems to be enough... i always feel that there are not enough change of clothes and i am always wearing the same clothes... Bags, i doesnt seem to have ample bags to suit my every outfits...
My Prom is tomorrow and i haven't really decided on what to wear... If i were to wear my red dress, i will have not accessories and bag to go with it... sighZ... I really need money... but, even i have the money now, i also don't have the time to look for the things i really like in the end it will still be some sort of impulse buying ( i am a slave to impulse buying! ) I realised there are some clothes i have not even worn before...
Lucky Piggy will be my cheuffeur tomorrow.. If not i really don't feel like going for prom liao... Just pray that it will be a fun evening...
Alright i shall go check out my wardrobe for potential outfits tomorrow... Till then its me, myslef and I cos Piggy is still on duty...
With Love, Jas 10:07 PM
Sunday, November 28, 2004
Getting really lazy to blog recently... Getting up on a job hunt... Going out.. meeting friends.. end up being too tired to blog...
Spent the entire day at home today.. reading Dan Brown's Angels and Demons... It really sent my heart racing... Gosh~! i need a break from all the suspense...
Piggy Is on duty today, tomorrow and day after tomorrow... boring for me... and boring to him too... Oh no~! no one to send me home tomorrow when i go out... sighZ... NO~! i must be an independent new age woman...
Going to sign up for basic theory test.. excited about it man~! I must do well and get liscence soon... so i can drive Piggy around instead of just being a navigator... I can definitely do better than him... yeah~!
Grad night coming this wednesday... and i don't know why, but i am kinds dreading it... It's kinda stuid dressing up so grandly for an event that i think will not be as formal as i anticipated... End up spending loads of money and time preparing for an event no more than 5 hours... Stupid right? SianZ~!
Btw, i am going for facial on wed with Siow Hui... kinda excited about it... hope it will be a great experience... Laine is also coming back on wed... hope she buys us nice presents... Yeah~!
With Love, Jas 11:31 PM
Tuesday, November 23, 2004
Permed my hair today... Its the longest time i ever spent in a salon.... Sorry Laine and piggy for making you people wait for me for so long...
Thanks to all whoe complimented me about my hair... Thanks Piggy, Love ya.... Thanks to Ben~! I don't know if you really mean it but i just take your comment as a compliment...
Love my hair now... despite the negative comments from my mum, bro and the ever-hateful-maternal-grandma... I still love my hair... Mum never like me to perm hair cos she thinks that i am wasting money.... I don't care~! i just like my hair... she is not me, she will not understand me entirely~!
Shopped around with Laine... Tired now... Really need to work and earn money~! I am so broke and i really need loads of money~! I wanna perm my lashes...
Saw the diamond ring i like from Goldheart Jewellery.... Its really very nice and it looks nice on my finger too... it cost $356... anyone can buy it for me? I don't think so... I guess i have to earn my own money and buy it myself... Did not really see much things that caught my eye... Too long never shop like abit not pro liao... Feels like i have nothing in mind to buy... Maybe its because i am just too broke for anything... SAD~!
Wanted to take passport size photo and it cost freaking expensive... Went to 3 shops in town and just take a look at the price range... 6 for $10, 8 for $12 and 4 for $10... the last one was just a dayligt robbery... KaoZ.... So expensive.. must as well go rob a bank...
Till then its me, myself and i feeling wonderful about my hair... And i don't care about what some people say... I am loving it...
With Love, Jas 11:05 PM
Been 3 days since i last blogged... many things to say.. guess i'll slowly type what has been going the past few days...
Firstly, Piggy was back from Aussie on friday... Went down to the airport to meet Laine, Geok and Mich and when all arrived we went to the arrival gate at terminal one to meet him... Heart was actually thumping very quickly.. At that moment i really can't wait to see him... However i am abit weary, cos i don't know what to do, what to say when i see him... Nonetheless he was amongst the first to come out... guess he did not shop much in the DFS...
I was really happy, elated ( i cant't think of other words ) when i see him.. Did not say much to him.. Just grinnning from ear to ear the entire time... Well, I'm not a person who can express the emotions well..
Went for dinner at Sakae and headed back to his home...
It was so late when we reached his home and decided to stay over at his house since he dosen't have the energy to send me home... Got reprimanded from Mummy as usual... ( she does not allow me to stay over at other people's house ) But whatever, i got my way through with it... OpS~!
Went to study with Laine and Chris ( Geok was no where to be found ) at Seng Kang Lib... Was not productive at all... By the time i reached and settled down... they said they wanna leave... Fine, then i packed up with them and went to meet Piggy... Hehe.. We went to town despite the fact that i have exam on Monday... However, we went to Coffee Bean to study before we head home....
Mugging, mugging and mugging..... Soon the days will be gone...
Sunday was mugging day... Went to Kovan CC to study.. and guess what? Piggy joined us... He was reading his Angels and Demons by Dan Brown while the rest of us mugged for our Econs... I was really put down because i hardly get any MCQ right... SighZ... I was thinking "Tomorrow is the exam and yet i am not sure about simple economics concepts... DARN~!" Was really worried about the paper on monday~! Went for dinner at some Brazil resstaurant ant Sixth Avenue... The food was great~! But i was kinda tired from all the mugging in the day... Was really worried about the exam the entire time...
One exciting thing... Piggy and I found out that the guy who won the Subaru in the Subaru all-wheel drive contest was Ian... Piggy's friend~! wow~! great~!
Monday finally came... one paper after another and after about 3 hours of mental stress, its time for us the put down our pens~! This implies that the big 'A's is over~!
It's gone~!!!!
Yeah~! How do i express my excitement? I think it is beyond words.... Double yeah for Piggy return and great 'A's over~! In fact it was just this morning when the 'A's was officially over for me.. And to my surprise, Piggy cam to school to pick me up... Went home to sleep ahile he went for his Bike lesson... Met him in town and Shop SHOP SHOP~! It's been centuries since i last shopped... Great~! Watched The Incredibles too.... Had a great laugh... I feel wonderful...
Now, all i have to do is to find a job soon... I am running a real budget deficit... I wanna perm my hair, perm my lashes, get nice clothes, Facial, Spa, holiday, Amore... there are just too many things that i wanna do.. And i simply don't have enough money to do all... Can anyone be my loanshark? I need a loan man...
Guess what I am thinking now... I am thinking that loans ( mention above ) will help increase consumption level, which in turn increases Aggregate Expenditure resulting in an increase in National income... Freak~! The exams are still getting into me... Btw, spend more people... If everyone spend more altogether.. National income might increase ( although Singapore's multiplier is small but i guess it helps a little )
Oh no~! This is too much~! Jas stop!
Tomorrow is shopping day with Laine... hehe.. I wanna perm my hair~!
Okie.. I think i better stop here if not i will start those economic theories again~! Stay tuned for more excitement~! December is an exciting month.. Yeah~!
With Love, Jas 1:12 AM
Thursday, November 18, 2004
Daniel and Jasmine are sitting alone in the park one night....
Daniel: I guess we are the left overs in this world
Jasmine: I think so...All of my friends have boyfriends and we are only the 2 persons left in this world with out any special person in our life
Daniel: Yup I don't know what to do
Jasmine: I know! We'll play a game
Daniel: What game?
Jasmine: i'll be your girl friend for 30 days and you will be my boy friend
Daniel: That's a great plan, in fact i don't have nothing to do much this following weeks...
DAY 1:They watch their first movie and they both touched in a romantic film
DAY 4:They went to the beach and have a picnic...Daniel and Jasmine have their quality time together
DAY 12:Daniel invited Jasmine to a circus and they rideon a Horror House....Jasmine was scared and she touched Daniel's hand but she touched someone else's hand and they both laughed...
DAY 15:They saw a fortune teller down the road and theyasked for their future advice and the fortune teller said: "My darling, Please don't waste the time of your life...Spend the rest of your time together happily" Then tears flow out from the teller's eyes...
DAY 20:Jasmine invited Daniel to go to the hill and they saw a meteor... Jasmine mumbled something
DAY 28:They sat on the bus and because of a bumby road Jasmine gave her first kiss to Daniel by accident
DAY 29:11:37pm Jasmine and Daniel sat in the park where they first decided to play this game...
Daniel: I'm tired Jasmine...Do you want any drinks? I'll buy you one.. I'll just go down the road
Jasmine: Apple Juice that's all
Daniel: Wait for me....
20mins later... a stranger approached Jasmine
Stranger: Are you a friend of Daniel?
Jasmine: Why yes? What happened?
Stranger: A reckless drunken driver ran over Daniel and he is critical in the hospital
11:57pm
The doctor went out of the emergency room and he handed out an apple juice and a letter
Doctor: We found this in daniel's pocket.
Jasmine reads the letter and it says: Jasmine, This past few days, i realized you are a really cute girl and i am really falling for you..I cherish your smile, your everything, when we played this game..... Before this game would end...I would like you to be my girl friend for the rest of my life....I love you Jasmine....
Jasmine crumples the paper and shouted:"Daniel ! i don't want you to die... I loveyou... Remember that night when we saw a meteor, I mumbled something... I mumbled that I wish we would be together forever and never end this game. Please don't leave me Daniel.... I love you! You cannot do this to me!"Then the clock strikes 12. Daniel's heart stop pumping
THEN IT WAS THE 30TH DAY
This is really a sad story... So sad that i almost cried... Please don't let such thing happen to me... I love you...
With Love, Jas 8:30 PM
He is coming back tomorrow... Really very excited about it... Will go down to the airport to meet him after my exam... *can't wait*
I think I am super blur... Tomorrow's Chem paper 1 is in the afternoon 2.30pm... But i subconsciously keep thinking that it is in the morning... So stupid of me... I even planned to go to the airport at about 12 noon and do loads of MCQ questions there... All my planning have gone to a waste due to my forgetfulness... DARN~! That means i have 1 day less to prepare for my Econ on Monday... SighZ..
I must really study really really hard for the paper... I will not slack ok~!! I must get at least a 'B' for my Econs~!!
Yeah yeah yeah~!! he is coming back tomorrow... Really can't wait to see him... Really miss him alot these days... ARGH~!! Really cant wait...
Watching tv now... I will go do more MCQ later... hehe~! Pray for me that the paper will be in favour of me okie... Yeah~!!
Miss you piggy...
With Love, Jas 7:50 PM
Wednesday, November 17, 2004
Just reached home... Had freaking Chem and Econ paper today... Freaking tired...
I think i am going to do badly for my Chem paper 2... so this makes me have to mug harder for the last paper for Chem this friday... i am going to do as many MCQ as i can by friday... I must score at least 32/40 for MCQ~! come on~! cheer me on~! I shall be a mugger... for 5 more days.. It's now or never ( quoted from my idol, Mr KB Ong.. )
My shoulder really aching... In my 2 years in CJC, i never wrote such a long essay for Econs like today... Half my pen's ink is gone staining the paper with words and words and words...
I think they should increase the duration to 3 hrs... I really have no time to finish writing... I took an hour for my first question and like left with only half an hour to finish the last question... *gosh* This is kinda stupid... The moment you sit down you have to start writing, there is no time at all for you to think about the question... There is definitely something to improve in our Singapore education system...
I am really happy now... the things i studied came out... Keynes was out... Policy ( fiscal and monetary ) was out... and elasticity was out too... i did the last 2 questions mentioned without even studying much for it... Feeling abit of worried... but i have no time to worry about such things... I have to mug for my other remaining papers...
I am really happy now cos he is coming back the day after tomorrow.. really excited about it.. Waiting fr him to call me now... i really have loads of things to tell him.. But again i will not know how to start when i see him... I am always like that...
I must go University... so i shall not spend too much time here... I must go rest then mug~!!
I will get my place in a university~!
With Love, Jas 5:40 PM
Tuesday, November 16, 2004
3 more days to go... Really can't wait to see him..
Tomorrow is Chemistry paper 2 and Economics paper 3... 2 papers in a row~! very nervous... I very scared~!!! like as if i have not studied enough... how~!!?? I have not really studied for Chem paper... *ARGH* I must do well~!! i am freaking nervous...
After tomorrow, a big load will be off my shoulder... But i am dreading tomorrow's arrival... Can't wait for Friday... Fine~! I am full of contradictions...
I am scared~!!
I must go study more~!!!! Where is my labour market notes??
Hope Keynes, International trade ( protectionism), Market failure( Public/Merit/demerit goods) come out for econs tomorrow... Come out things i have studied okie~!!! Please~!!!
Jas~! you can do it~!
With Love, Jas 9:50 PM
Monday, November 15, 2004
Just Laine said," Hey, How come you can be with a person for so long? 4 years. Don't you fell bored?"
HmmmnZ... How to answer that? My immediate answer is that when you love someone you will not be tired of the person... Everyday is a new day, with new experience... You do different things with him everyday, talk about different things everyday... There is something new everyday... So, how is it you can grow tired of the person?
Love is different from fondness... Though there is only a thin line drawn betewwn the two.. but they are totally different concepts... Until now, i still can't define 'love' but it is definitely different from fondness... You can grow fond of a person but not love the person at the same time.... HmmmnZ... its rather complex... Go watch Princess' diaries and you will get to see an example..
Actually i don't know how to answer that question... Relationships are really unpredictable... there are many stories about couples who are together for more than 5 years but end up parting with eachother... Maybe for the past few years, the are only fond of eachother, they have never really love eachother...
I don't know if i am really in love of i have been very fond of him for the past 4 years... I am really not sure of my feelings...
Do you really love me or are you just fond of me?
Studied at Koven CC today with my dear Laine, Mich and Geok... Haha.. Learnt alot today... did Nov 2003 paper today.. I hope tomorrow's paper will not be too difficult... GOD PLEASE BLESS ME~!!
He will be back in 4 days time... Getting more and more excited about it.. Really can't wait to see him... Absence really makes the heart grow fonder...
Read Mich blog just now... I really must agree with her for everything... Sometimes, I really feel very lonely... Sometimes its even when you have your friends around you but you still can feel lonely... This is simply because the people you want to be with is not with you...there is the kind of emptiness which cause the feeling of loneliness in you... No doubt, i feel very lonely because he is not here with me at this crucial point of my life, luckily i have Laine, Mich and Geok here to accompany me.. If they were not around, i will feel even more lonely... So, Mic don't worry... All will be over soon..
GOSH~! i really miss him now... I hope friday will come soon...
With Love, Jas 10:22 PM
Saturday, November 13, 2004
Really lazy to blog...
Watching My Sassy girl now... Funny~!!
How i wish he is here watching with me.... *slaps!! stop dreaming okay~!!*
SighZ.. really miss him lahZ..
With Love, Jas 11:12 PM
Friday, November 12, 2004
Decided to blog today....
Good news~!! My skirt is in town!! And its in my room now~!! WONDERFUL~!! This calls for a celebration or something... hehe... I guess i am really too happy for anything else ( erm, no~!! i will be happier if he is back here with me )
There is another white skirt which is supposed to arrive earlier... but there is no one at his house to await the grand arrival of the parcel, singapore post has been like keeping it for more than a wek liaoZ.... Poor white skirt~!! don't worry i will sayayng you when u come into my hands ok.... I will welcome you with open arms...
Oh great~! i can start counting down on his arrival date.... there is still exactly 7 days to go~!! very soon i can hug him tight already.... *can't wait*
Been thinking of him the entire time just now... Thought of him when i was watching tv... thought of him when i was admiring my new skirt... I find myself rather stupid... I been dreaming of myself hugging him at the airports arrival hall... i been dreaming of him showing the things he bought for me from Australia in his room... Too much castles in the air~!! But really, i missed his room... hehe!! i missed the cosiness of his room... i miss cooking dinner for him and his sister... i miss everything about him...
*Don't worry jas, he is coming back in 7 days time*
And when he comes back on Friday, i will be left with only Econs paper on Monday... After that i will be absolutely free to meet him everyday...
I miss shopping too... Its been a long time since i stepped into orchard road... I want to shop at Forever21, Zara, Mango, Roxy many many... but currently i am super duper poor... i owe M1 a total of more than $120 of bill... Anyone wants to make a donation to 'Love Jas' fund?
I really felt very happy after bitching in the last entry!! I think i have been too nice a person recently and guess what, i shall and will unleash the bitch that has been maturing in me!! I want to be a bitch, slut, ah-lian... Whatever you call it... And its always my ambition to be an ah-lian... Cos i just don't like to be bullied by anyone anymore!! I want to take the lead and no one is to get in my way~! JAS ROX~!
*actaully all is due to the extensive rebuilding of confidence campaign!!*
Jasmin is still a sweet and loving girl... However, being ever sweet and loving, she still lack of confidence... So all must give Jasmin yet another chance... She just needs more time to sort out whatever is necessary.... And this is the best time ( When Alvin is not around )
One question to ask...
For example, your girlfriend is an actress, will you be jealous when you see her kissing another guy passionately during one of her shootings?
I guess many will say 'NO' because it is the requirement of her job... You understand her situation... But as a girl, sometimes i feel that it is absolutely flattering to know that your guy actaully becomes jealous with someone over you... This jealousy gives me the feeling that i am loved... It reminds me that "he cares" you know...
Being a person who is often given the liberty to go out with anyone and everyone... Sometimes i really love to hear him say "i don't like you to go out with so-and-so".. this just makes me feel so loved, alive~! I love it!! I feel that giving your girlfriend too much liberty to do anything she wants might just make her feel a little neglected sometimes... Its not the question of trust for now... But, well, a girl's desire is sometimes so complex that hardly any guy can interpret... Its just like that.. Girls are full of paradox.. That i must agree and that is why it make us, girls, so attractive and interesting... If you are able to predict everything that she feels, wouldn't it be tad too boring, bland? Everyone wants some spice in life right?
Hehe.. alright thats really my two cents worth... May not apply to all but at least to me *hint-hint*
Take care and good night~!
With Love, Jas 11:25 PM
Thursday, November 11, 2004
Just want to blog....
Went to Mich's house to study today... wasn't productive at all... sighZ~!! this is really bad... Mich's mum cooked dinner for us... hehe... but i dun have the appetite to eat... Ate really slowly... The four of us ( Laine, Geok, Mich and me ) suddenly just talked about Genevieve and we started to search for her on friendster... How childish are we...
To Genevieve if you are reading this... don't be angry ok... We got the right to do anything we want... call us childish or any ugly names... we are not going to care... *i just want to be a bitch for once* Since there are som many bitches around.. it dosen't harm to have one more right...
Searched and searched but somehow found no leads to anything... hehe... its either she did not post any photo or she just disintegrated into thin air or i just can't recognise her anymore... Whatever it is... does it matter?
To those who are not my direct friends and reading my blog, You are really kay-poh~!! Fancy adding people in the favourites and poke their nose into other's business... KaoZ~! Can you just get a life... Forget about "this is the internet, since you write things here you should not be afraid to let others see" What a freaking cliched excuse... YES~!! i don't mind anyone reading my entries... but don't let me find out that you are doing it... And come on... if you want just read, don't go around asking people who know me about my life~!! I am no celebrity... My life should not be in the lime-light... Sorry if i may offend you in the use of diction or in any way...
I am feeling very bitchy right now...
Laine is staying over at Mich's house tonight... How i wish i am allowed to do so too... sighZ... my mum just dosen't like me to stay over at friend's house... Anyway i also find staying at other people's house very troublesome... Don't have a variety of clothes to choose and change into... everything there is not yours so you can't have the liberty to use everything... Restrictions~! I am full of contradictions some may say... whatever~!
He called me and told me he bought me shorts and a roxy skirt~!! Hurray~!! can't wait for him to come back ( not because of the presents ok~! ) just miss him so much...
I wasted two days~!! oughta be more productive and study hard hard!! I mus conquer a non-living thing~!! I can do it~!!
Been waiting very long for my stuff to be delievered to my place... ( stuff i ordered online ) Apparently its a public holiday today... no postal delieveries today... Can the vpost be faster....?? i am really getting impatient...
There's another parcel which was to be sent to his house but when it was sent, his sister was not at home... then they left a note at their house to ask for an appointment for it to be resent... Argh~!! I have yet to hear any news of it... And to my horror... he said if they were to keep the parcel... they might charge extra~!! oh gawd~!! *panics* i hope his sister can help me get it quick... but apparently she is workingnow... so she is busy... so... Damn~!! i don't wanna think anymore... ArgHZ~!
Having mixed feelings now... all kinds of feeling... This dosen't feel good at all...
With Love, Jas 11:24 PM
Tuesday, November 09, 2004
Traumatised by math paper today... I don't know how to do!!! left so many blanks~!!! somebody save me!!!
I feel sick... feverish again...
Watched Princess' Dairies today to chill... Nice show... It made me laughed...
Ate at Mos burger after the show... talked to the girlfriends... *I wanna cry*
Why i don't know how to do mathS??
Must work really hard..
Dead tired...
Feeling really sick~!!
*sad*
Lazy to blog...
Thought of the hear0breaking times again... sighZ...
With Love, Jas 10:49 PM
Monday, November 08, 2004
Had Chemistry paper 3 today... How should i describe it..? It's not very tough.. many i expected to come out, came out... but i wasn't very well prepared... *daRnZ* Oh well.. i hope i will not fail that paper... I will do well~!!!
Mugged for Maths paper 1 just now with Geok and Mich... i don't know loads of stuff... But thanks to Geok and Mich for explaining those thing to me... Laine joined us later after her History paper... hehe.. Mugged... and guess what i feel happy... and tired.. *duhZ*
Gonna go catch a movie tomorrow after the paper with Laine, Geok and Mich.. Its a recharge for us to study harder for next week's paper...
I am happy that i studied hard this time... Even though there is a possibility that i will not do well.. But i have done my best... I will not regret....
He called me just now... *finally* I am so elated to hear his voice...!! Especially at this point of time when i need he support most... I really miss him... How i wish he is here to encourage me and support me... *oh no! i feel like crying* But on the other hand, if he was around, i might not be mugging as hard... so afterall, this short separation may be a blessing in disguise...
I have so much to say but i don't know how to express myself... I am really looking forward to his return.. but at the same time not as much... because i simply have not enough time to revise all that i need to... I simply have no time!! when he returns, it marks that most of my papers are over... So, should i look forward to it? Yes~!! I really miss him...
I am so very worried about tomorrow's paper.. I am dead tired... And i guess i better go rest early... tomorrow shall wake up early to revise somemore....
Before i go... I really wanna thank Laine, Geok and Mich for studying with me.. if not, i might be just slacking away.. and wasting my time... Thanks for being there for me Laine, especially when i am down and when i miss him in the middle of the night... thanks for the ever-so-lovely encouraging messages... If not for you, i might be just crying my way through the night... *oh no! i really feel like crying* I am so fortunate to have you people around me... I love you all babes... Oh not forgetting Jenna and Siow Hui.. I will not forget your presence...
*sleep* hope i will sleep soundly...
With Love, Jas 10:21 PM
Saturday, November 06, 2004
Came home from studying at Airport.. and to my surprise, i found barley drink on the table... all for me.... I think mummy really loves me... I told her i have sore throat last night and asked her to cook barley for me... but this morning she forgot about it... however, she cooked for me in the afternoon.... WoW~!
Really having a very bad sore throat... because in the midst of it.. i feel feverish... gobbled down a panadol just now.. hope i will not get any sicker~! Exam period sick.. it's really bad~! Maybe i go the Docter tomorow...
Took a bus with Geok, Laine and Eugene ( aka penguin) home... 27 ( never ask me to take this bus again!!)... And it was freaking irritating.. the bus pass through Tampines... and even reached the Tampines mall... ArghZ~! I exclaimed, "Don't you know i hate Tampines the most?" I just hate Tampines... Don't ask me why~!! just look back on the past blogs and you shall know~!!
I was kinda angry..In fact very... but i have no one to blame... Maybe got to blame myself for being so petty... And i shouldn't expect anyone to remember all of my stuffs...
I hate Tampines because it reminds me of all the unhappy things... So irritating... And guess what? I having all my mood swings again... I really hate this.. because it makes me unable to concentrate on what i am suppose to concentrate on.... Unhappy~!
I am suppose to study~!! And i suddenly realise that i don't have much time left.. And this realisation is too late~! ARgh~! I have no time to squeeze so many things into my brain at such a short time.. However, i shall not give up~! I but get at least straight B~!!!
Missed him... missed him even more when i am at the airport just now... But i can't do anything about it at all.. and that makes me even more frustrated....
I hate you... ( to that particular someone )
I miss you .. ( to that particuler someone )
With Love, Jas 11:49 PM
Friday, November 05, 2004

*i"m so sorry* but this is nice too... *i really can't help it*
Will you still love me tomorrow...
With Love, Jas 11:42 PM

*i have sinned* i promise i will study~! but i like this...
Will you still love me tomorrow...
With Love, Jas 11:41 PM
Been missing piggy again... Everyday night time also will miss him badly... Because at night is the time when i am alone with myself and that is when i start to think abut those times when he was here ( and i took him for granted ) AaRrgh~!! its been 72hr 24mins since he last called me... He went out to the desert.. cannot call me till the 10th.. AarGH~!! this is torturous... Really miss him... but i can't do anything about it.. sighZ~!
Hope he is doing well over there... don't fall sick... don't get heat stroke... BE JUST FINE~!!
I think i am falling sick *NO I CAN'T* Been cursing Laine and teasing her about her sore throat... and see, I finally had my retribution~!! I am having sore throat~! I must drink more water.. Asked my mum to cook barley but i am going to study early in the morning tomorrow... Oh no~!! I cant fall sick lahZ... Cannot fall sick during exam period...
Studied with Geok today at Seng Kang Lib... I found myself quite productive... I think i might get a B for Chem at this rate i am going... Must jia you~!! HOwever, I am quite worried for my Math... like not very prepared... still not very sure about APGP, Complex no., vectors.. Oh no~!! i have no time!!
Oh no... I really miss him...
Today only ate a bread and a bread was i all i ate till evening... I am not dieting.. I don't have suppressed appetite.. Its the stupid cafe at the library i was studying at, dosen't allow me to eat my food... She came so close to me and said "No outside food here please.." ~*so irritating*~ ( in Mich's tone ) Suddenly i felt skinnier... *blehZ*
I miss you...
With Love, Jas 11:08 PM
Wednesday, November 03, 2004

Laine looks bitchy.. wahaha~!
Will you still love me tomorrow...
With Love, Jas 9:03 PM

Like this photo... it will be better if its zoomed in further... hehe..
Will you still love me tomorrow...
With Love, Jas 9:02 PM

Laine says she looks like Sadako.. wahaha.. actually quite lahZ~!
Will you still love me tomorrow...
With Love, Jas 9:01 PM

Our wonderful dinner at Marche... hehe..
Will you still love me tomorrow...
With Love, Jas 9:00 PM
Tuesday, November 02, 2004
Went to study today at Kovan as usual.. with the usual gang ( Mich, Laine, Geok and Siow Hui ) Studied until 5.30 then we left for dinner... Piggy called me at about 5pm++.. Its about 7pm in Australie already... I miss him.. and he miss me too... *blissful*
Went to Suntec for dinner.. Why all the way there from Kovan? Cos its Dear Mich's Birthday!! yeah~!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY MICHELLE!!
Had dinner at Marche, together with Mich BF ( soon kuey ).. Really had a great time.. and i think Mich also had a great time cos we are just too good-friends to be true...
Walked around for awhile then took a tran home with Laine, Geok and Siow Hui.. on the way through Citilink, i saw i lady who seems very familiar.. took a second look... and i think she is Genevieve... Not sure if i recognised the wrong person... But see looks exactly like the image of her in my mind...
I don't know why... But my heart kinda stopped for a second... Kinda traumatised... much troubled with the past again... She is really a big problem deep within my heart... and i find it rather difficult to remove her from the deepest root... Somebody help me!! Some body save me!!
Sad... I wann cry already lahZ~!
My Pink Skirt arrive at my US Address already... but i have some touble paying... ( must pay then they will ship one ) oh no... how?? Must go find out...
With Love, Jas 10:27 PM
Monday, November 01, 2004
Its raining very heavily now... And missing him too... Gotta start my engine to study soon... but still gotta say something here first..
Ordered another 2 skirts online... but they say its out of stocks... ordered another cap a week ago.. but suddenly its out of stocks too... I'm quite pissed off... because he already confirmed the order yet now he says its out of order... I have yet send out the payment... and also he said, to compensate me, he'll give me a US$10 voucher for my next purchase... I think the system they are working with is not very effective... customers end up not getting the goods they want due to time lag... The sense of disappointment is bad enough...
Although buying through them is cheaper, but buying through them does not make sure that we get our goods... Buying from the site straight away makes sure that we can get the good the moment we see it... The problem of time lag is really irritating.. furthermore there are so many people in between, the problem of time lag is even more persistent... If that's the case i would rather spend more money as i am sure that i am going to get the good... However not everyone is willing to spend those money...
Really missing him now... the rain outside together with the blues... makes me wanna see him more... Been receiving calls from him... but i never even asked him how is he over there... Been too concerned with myself over him... Kinda selfish over here... sighZ~! Been waiting for his call and checking the phone for missed calls every now and then...
About 18 days to go.... he will be back in 18 days time... dosen't seem too long at all... but the anticipation makes a day seems longer than 24 hrs... Feelings of loneliness sets in... And my mind starts to have wild thoughts... This is really bad... I really can't wait to see him... Can't wait for that big warm hug...
Absence really makes the heart grow fonder...
When u miss someone, its really difficult to concentrate on other things... However i will study hard!! He told me to study hard and yes!! i will study hard!!
With Love, Jas 1:40 PM

Another picture taken...
Will you still love me tomorrow...
With Love, Jas 1:36 PM

Taken at Mr Chiam's wedding... All the girls only...
Will you still love me tomorrow...
With Love, Jas 1:35 PM
Jasmin Kee
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