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Saturday, July 10, 2004
No sentosa today.. rained in the morning.... sighZ.. Piggy lazy to go also... I didn't attend Chemistry lecture today... lazy to go lahZ.. guilty? yes/no?
************** WAITING IS A COMPLETE WASTE OF TIME***************
Waiting for Piggy's grand arrival.. sighZ.. forever waiting... sighZ.. always full of work to do... i gotta be understanding.. but i don't know how to be understanding.. its really irritating to have to wait for someone for so long... And worse it happens regularly... Say that will be coming soon.. then after say that gota go run some errands first... in the end i have to wait for hours... i really don't how to say.. how to show my discontent.. if i bring this up, i will be accused of being not- understanding enough... so must i be understanding by waiting unconditionally and not let off abit of discontent? I CANT DO IT! at least for now.. the naive me can't do it...
Maybe i having mood swings again... Maybe my period is coming... whatever it is i am still full of grudges.. i really hate people to make me wait.. Always meeting people there will be people who will be late... late for awhile is ok.. but C'mon, late for more than half an hour is unforgivable unless you have a good reason...
Why do i hate waiting so much?? Put simply, when i wait, i will have nothing to do.. and what will happen? i will start to imagine things.. good or bad... And most of the time trouble awaits when this happens... Many may say that this is my problem.. Correct.. this is my problem... and you brought this problem upon me by making me wait...
Listening to Liang Jing Ru's song while typing this.. her songs reminds me of those times... the emotions i felt.. it brought me back to the past.. heart broken.. in dilenma.. in denial.. being foolish.. all the emotional trauma... her songs are like mirror.. i felt that i can see myself..
I have learnt silence from the talkative, toleration from the intolerant, and kindness from the unkind; yet strange, I am ungrateful to these teachers.
Kahlil Gibran (1883 - 1931)
With Love, Jas 12:24 PM
Jasmin Kee
CHIJ-OLGC, Cedar Girls' Sec Sch, CJC, SIM
jas2104@hotmail.com
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