4am and pretty much don't feel like sleeping... Because I am disgusted with myself.
Been thinking alot of late.
I never seemed to carry out the things that I say. I do not like it, but I still do it.
Am I really so stubborn? ( YES I am)
Lately I have resorted to using materials to satisfy my emotional needs. Just thinking of things to buy all the time. Totally unhealthy.
I really need to get myself occupied with something, someone.
BUT I have my mind on someone who doesn't even bother about me. Its really annoying!
And I swear I HATE it.
And this makes me hate myself. Even more!
I hate the me now.
I hate the me who do not stand up for myself.
Always letting others bully.
Where is your pride?
You have totally lost it.
Disgusting.
With Love, Jas 4:08 AM
It has been 4 months since I last updated... If there are any frequent visitors, Surprise SURPRISE!
If there aren't, well this is just to past some time for me...
Many things happened then past few months... The happy moments and definitely the sad and perhaps angry ones.
Some things just kept me thinking.
Number 1:
I am not as young as a subconsciously think I am. Why?
People around me are thinking of marriage! For goodness sake, I don't even have a steady bf!
And I am still thinking of adding new members for my LV family... Gosh!
Which makes me question, when is the time you think you are ready for marriage?
How much money should you have to be financially comfortable for marriage?
Oh man! Its a scary thought to the young me.... And I don't even wanna probe further into working out the finances... Moreover, I DO NOT HAVE A BF! Not steady not considered.
Number 2:
Why must I tolerate insensitive, non-empathising men who doesn't seem to understand me?
My work already requires me to be very tolerant and maintain good composure always. I don't think I will be able to withstand further undesired behaviour after work hours.
Bottomline, Men: Please be more sensitive. Sometimes girls just wanna complain. We don't need solutions or any sarcastic remarks that will not make us feel any better.
Or maybe I shouldn't stereotype and say girls generally.... Maybe its just me! HAHA!
Number 3:
Life is really weird, isn't it?
It seems like its all the wrong people doing the right things at the right time and the right people doing the wrong things ALL THE TIME.
As for the above comment, I shall not explain further.
Random updates:
I told my brother just now that I wanna go on a holiday-Hongkong.
He said, "What?? Not again? You haven't been to Taiwan, go Taiwan lar!"
But I wanna go Ocean Park!!
I really wanna go Ocean Park, and Macau!! Even if everyone tells me there is nothing in Macau.
Shopaholic updates:
I bought myself a Palermo GM. Probably getting a Neverfull Damier MM. Wants to get a Joey wallet.
I am a LV fan.
My hatch-day is coming. I am not hinting, I am ANNOUNCING!!
21 April
HAHA~
Thanks for wasting your time reading my nonsense!
CIAO~
With Love, Jas 1:38 AM
Merry Xmas~!!
Its been a long time since I wrote something here.. Well, I am still very much alive!
I've survived Standard Chartered Half marathon...
I went for my long awaited eye surgery....
And say no more to specs and contacts on Geokie's b-day!
How wonderful life is.... And it will just get better...
With Love, Jas 11:05 PM
I am still alive!!!
Been really busy... Busy merry making.... Wahahaahahaaa!! Nah... Busy working...
Alas, I am still alive.... GTG!
With Love, Jas 8:23 PM
I'm so touched, I feel like crying....
Thanks for everything...
Thanks for all the blessings...
With Love, Jas 5:43 PM
Happy is an understatement for what I am feeling now....
I am flying~!!!!
=D
With Love, Jas 11:46 AM
Can you imagine?
It was a tiring day. You were caught in the rain, feeling cold and hungry... Wondered aimlessly and probably browsed the entire bookstore...
And what welcomes you was "Next time reach give me a call or sms. Don't waste my time like this."
Didn't she wasted her time too?
Didn't she felt frustrated too?
She don't know what kind of feeling came to her when she heard that, but she was appalled that she could just let it go and walk on as per normal.
What the hell has gotten into her. This is NOT what Jasmin Kee Li Ting will ever do. Not standing up for herself, and let herself get penalized for communication break down. She feel so wronged and yet did nothing about it.
"What has gotten into me?" This was what was in her mind for the rest of the night.
She need to search for her soul. She has to be what she used to be.
Can you feel her?
Its love and hate all at the same time.
*****
Something to remember from Mel's Bday
Snippets of Nike Run...
With Love, Jas 12:54 PM
Something that laine shared with us...
Since there's no help, come let us kiss and part; (or maybe not)
or kiss anyway, let's start with that, with the kissing part,
because it's better than the parting part, isn't it --
we're good at kissing, we like how that part goes
-- kim addonizio
With Love, Jas 2:14 PM
You Just Wanna Get Drunk When You Have Insomnia
Yes, I just wanna get drunk badly... Seriously...
I must just say, Fiona and I just contrast out very well...Well, She is dark and I am Fair...
And Mel is super good in cutting Berd out of the picture...
I really wanna question this picture.... Is the person in the middle me???? Cos I really cannot recognise myself....
Lovie~!!
With Love, Jas 1:59 AM
Its SATC(second run-time) and tea sipping time.... and come to think of it, its been a long time I have blogged...
P.S I am getting my first ever wedding BOMB!! Congrats Paul!
Some photos from our National Day Dinner at laine's
Love you babes. Although it was a really Humble dinner, I really do enjoy the company. Although I lost money during Mahjong, I look forward to the next time we play it again.
Thanks for everything!
I love the really cute mini Magnum. Haha!
I am addicted to Yoga. My entire body is aching from Hot C and I am loving it!
Its cool to see that one can actually open a bottle of chilli sauce with so much delight. Woots!
This is the Mini magnum I am talking about... Doesn't look very mini here but the moment I got it out of its wrapper, I just couldnt help but exclaimed "Its so CUTE!"
This pic is to show SH that she missed out the Mini Magnum fun!!Mini Magnum RAWKS!
National Day Dinner Success~!! MUah!
With Love, Jas 1:34 AM